Noah's Shame

 20 And Noah began to be an husbandman, and he planted a vineyard:

21 And he drank of the wine, and was drunken; and he was uncovered within his tent.

And so, with Noah being a righteous man in the eyes of the Almighty, plus experiencing such massive trauma, after all that he went through, why would he be exposed in so much shame and recklessness. 

1. Some of the animals he had collected had to use them as burnt offerings. (Can you imagine the size and weight of those animals? You can imagine that they didn't stay still for sacrifice.) 

2. Can you imagine such loss of friends and family?

3. Then he became a tiller of the land only to get drunk? Wine is made from fermented grapes. Did they make it on the ark? 

This just makes me think that no matter how great you think you are, you will always do something to create shame in your life. If you don't do it someone else will. I still want to know why the Word would expose Noah with such shame.

Then the Almighty made a covenant with him?

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This doesn't make sense. 

#goodmorning 

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#EVE

Don't be ashamed of feeling shame

 Early this morning I was awakened or I never went to sleep early because fear of beauty was on my mind. I am free from that and I am delivered from that. But this morning, shame creeped. Be mindful of the things that dropping your spirit when you awake in the morning. Anyway, I was thinking that I am ashamed of my talents. I am ashamed of my gifts. I am ashamed of my outward appearance. So I realized that this is a root that was embedded in me when I was a child performing, drawing, making my own clothes, singing, and just being me. I realized that my elders made me feel like I was not good enough and that transpired into my adult life way into my older adult life thinking that I'm not good enough. That I'm not worthy to do anything even live. But the Bible says God bless  the works of her hands. The almighty said he will give you the words to speak. He also said that do not be afraid for he will perform what he said he would in me. I trust God. I trust his word. I trust what he says. And I trust that he cares for me enough to uproot all of those roots those negative things that were said to me that transpired into my negative thoughts about me. So I believe that he will do the same for you but instead of you being alone in this Deliverance, that he will send you someone to help you walk through the uprooting. Because once we realize that a lot of the things that we grew up believing about ourselves didn't belong to us but only belong to our predecessors of what was embedded in them, sometimes it just wasn't good. But we are still here. 

We are still living , breathing, and moving, in the Lord in our lives. This is a new life for us. This is a new life for me. No longer will I be bound. To other people's opinions. Not to not listen to sound wisdom but to discern heavily whether it's sound wisdom or just someone's opinion. I know that words have power. That's why there are so many meanings to one word. Because they have power. And the word of God has power to change one's life. Because he changed mine and he still changing it for the better. He still changing it so I can know that I am loved. To know that I have a father that loves me that cares for me that'll help me when I need it. So I send you blessings today and I pray that you be delivered from shame. And don't be afraid to expose it so you can kill it. Selah 

Beauty blog

 I'm sitting here in my bed feeling like I'm having a Life review. Life reviews happen to people who have near-death experiences or ndes. I'm looking at my life as the path that I took for beauty. And what I'm finding out is that I am afraid to make myself beautiful because I am going to be reprimanded for putting on makeup, dressing up, even wearing heels. This stems from elementary school, my father, and some of my boyfriends. Sometimes I thought it was because I was dark skinned. But I was beautiful. My skin was a chocolate brown. My eyes and my hair are the same color. An extension hair it would be called number four. So I think I am beautiful. But now at 50 and my oppressors are now dead or gone., there should be no reason anymore for me to fear being beautiful. So I'm going to pray right now;

Father in the name of Jesus, I pray right now, to please deliver me from fear. Please deliver me from hurting myself. Please forgive me for not loving myself the way that you love me. Please forgive me for having other people's opinions affect the way I think about myself and it's not the way you think about me. Please forgive me for misinterpreting your word. Some people say beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Some people say that you don't look at the outward appearance but you look at the heart and I know that's what your word says not just what people say. But that misinterpretation messes with my self-esteem as far as me being beautiful is concerned. I will see so much about my nose and it's some instances I still am. But now I am in my older years and my body is beginning to break down. I spent a lot of my time not loving myself not beautiful in myself. Help me oh God to love myself. Help me oh Lord to be who you made me to be. That is a woman after your own heart. A woman that was born beautiful with curly hair and brown skin and the most beautiful smile. Help me oh Lord see myself as you see me. Help me oh Lord. Help me oh God. Because you are my maker. You created me. But you didn't create me like this. I only learned what I am taught from man. But what you taught me from your word and from the love that you have shown me by giving me life and giving me Revelation about my life you have shown me how beautiful I am in your sight. I thank you for this platform that I am able to confess my faults and heal from them while helping someone else heal also. I thank you for life. And I thank you for the ability to be able to be transparent to help someone else deal with the mental battles. Thank you for the opportunity. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being with me. Thank you for giving me strength. Thank you for covering me with your wings. Thank you for protecting me. Thank you for being my banner going before me. Thank you for everything. Thank you for taking care of me since my husband passed away. Forgive me for stepping away when I did. My spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. But I know I'm more spiritual than fleshy. I know that my spirit will control my flesh. Because that's not what's important in your eyes. I thank you for all the revelations in my life. Thank you for keeping me. Holy spirit thank you for showing me the way. Jesus you are the truth and the light thank you. Thank you for being my savior. I ask all these things in Jesus name amen.